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i wish life wasn't so sad sometimes. i wish we didn't have arguments. sigh...
in the end it just comes down to one thing - am i going to take responsibility for the things i screw up? and the answer is yes cuz i can't just tag it onto someone else. so am i the one that is making all the problems? I don't know...but i feel pretty miserable because of last night.

I want to see him tonight. Hear from him today. Yeah

+Mlm1986 post This is miserable and so is the rest of the week. Being stranded somewhere never felt so horrible. So alone and helpless.

I'm not sure how embarrassed I should be, but I must say that I am deeply convinced all the more now of why I should rid my room of all these books and stuff my mom has hiding away.

I have a really bad knack of browsing books. Really bad. It just cost me my sanity almost too. Because I want to clear out the books my mom has in my room, I really don't have a choice in what I see while doing so, but I'm grieved by the new found secret hidden away in a cabinet drawer full of papers and stuff that I wish would just be stored somewhere else instead of my room. I can't do much about getting the file drawer thing out of my room - my tv sits on it - but the things within are probably well over 10 years old.

Either way, I'm disgusted by what I just found. It was a book, most definitely, but my mom cleverly wrapped around it like a book cover, wrapping paper. The contents: i cannot even begin to say. But I am particularly moved by the fact that the subject is exactly what I have been struggling with for more than half my life. When I say the subject, I mean this book promotes what I struggle with. I have to get rid of it. I'm sorry, but seeing all the occult things my mom has in here just makes me sick; I have never really thought so much as to believe that spiritual realms are real and that the spirit of these things of occult lurk in my room for a reason, but you know what - it is pretty evident that it's true. If I want to sanctify my self, my room, to be set apart for God, then I cannot live in a place where I surround myself with ungodly things (regardless of whether or not I know of its existence or actually partake of its beliefs and whatnot).

With that said... I need to seriously clean out after work tomorrow if not in the morning.

Looking back by ~Ariasimos
There he is, my dear friend :)
our friend Hector took this photo as well as many other beautiful portraits of him...Travis.
This is one of my favorite, just because it's so natural and unpredicted. Also, Hector didn't photoshop this at all. Travis so beautiful :D

All things bright
And beautiful You are
All things wise
And wonderful You are

In my darkest night
You brighten up the skies
A song will rise
I will sing

A song of hope sing along
God of heaven come down, heaven come down
just to know you are near is enough
God of heaven come down, heaven come down

All things new
I can start again
Creator God
Calling me your friend

Sing praise my soul
To the maker of the skies
This song will rise
I will sing

A song of hope, sing along
God of heaven come down, heaven come down
Just to know that you are near is enough
God of heaven come down, heaven come down
Oh sing a song of hope, sing along
God of heaven come down, heaven come down

(Hallelujah sing
Oh hallelujah sing
Sing
Oh hallelujah sing)

A song of hope, sing along
God of heaven come down, heaven come down
Just to know you and your love is enough
God of Heaven come down, heaven come down
Oh sing a song of hope, sing along
God of heaven come down, heaven come down

So i've been looking up the LDS doctrine and such because it fascinates me that my friend doesn't have the ability to "know" certain things about the temple work done. I somehow think he's avoiding such topic because he already knows I'm finding his beliefs a bit out there...

well, among the many ridiculous things i've found, here's some stuff about just entering a temple:

"Make it clear that you represent the Lord in determining worthiness to enter his holy house. No unworthy applicant should receive a recommend. Be certain that each applicant is worthy as a result of living up to Church standards and principles."1

well first of all, nobody is "worthy" or "unworthy". Second of all, why would God allow a measly human determine whether someone is actually worthy, i mean who determined if that guy was worthy just to do this sort of job anyways?!? If anyone is more worthy than another then doesn't that mean you may as well just throw the original Bible out and follow your ludacris Mormon doctrine only? Seriously... (and if you want scripture to back this statement up I will gladly post those below at the end of this rant).

second thing I find absurd is that they actually follow some wacko who writes this nonsense saying it's God speaking to him... can you believe that THEY believe they can become GODS?!?! unholy blasphemy! Geez. to top it off, they don't even consider it blasphemy because they think that this guy is legit!!!

Ok well that's enough for one night O___o'


References:
Matt 3:11, 1Tim 1:15, Eph1:5, 1John 3:2, 1John 4:4 & 11, Rom 1:6 & 8:15,  Acts 15:8, 1Peter 2:9, Hebrews 10:25

back in school! 6th quarter, and i'm half way to the end!

this is going to be a good quarter indeed... though I'm not completely satisfied with all my classes.
but things are moving forward, and I'm blessed to have the opportunities that I have. well, got an early start today...should be sleeping :)

i know i haven't been much of a blogger for several years now...i guess i actually have a life that requires a lot of time now. anyways, you probably won't ever hear a peep out of me on here from now on so you may as well email me or go to my deviantart which is the closest thing to my "online" updates now.

hmm... well, it's been nice knowin ya.

see u if i do.

Warmth of Sand by ~Ariasimos on deviantART

i really like this photo. Seashells I like, but I enjoy the angle and how the objects are arranged. The warm colors are very soothing too.